My best friend "Strange Attractor" is mostly comfortable and content in palliative care. As I have been told "Just because you know I'm going to smash your face with this baseball bat it doesn't mean it won't hurt." Even though I know he is soon to leave his body it already hurts like nothing I have ever felt. "Ken, I'll be on the dock soon with a few beers and I promise I'll finish yours for you if need be. I am looking forward to having many long, thoughtful and humorous conversations with you, especially about myeloma. Sometimes I'm a little hard to get through to so don't give up on me! Even though I won't always respond know that I love you."
To add to all the emotion I had a 15-20% improvement in my myeloma markers last month. One of my most humorous and enjoyable months on chemo in the past 4+ years.
Life can be quite a ride at times.